Back from youth camp!!! <3

So PLBC's youth camp 2008 was pretty much incredible. I don't think ever in my lifetime have i witnessed God so alive all around us. It was amazing and indescriable. Lessons were verryy challenging. We were to ask ourselves "Whats the next level of faith in your life?" and "How does God want to use you?" Once i again i felt the tugg at my heeart about mission trips and sure enough God revealed a migghtty plan for my life. I feel liek im being pulled in the direction of teaching, particularily kids. I think that He wants me to use my teaching in another country. Giving kids the chance to learn English and other skills as well as learnign who they are in God and who He really is. Im kinda excited because i love kids and yess i really do have tosetp out of my boat and break down teh wall of fear to be able to go into a country that knows very little of God and just share it to kids, the next generation. I dont want to be just a "an okay" christian with my salty water instead of satisified. I want to drink from the living water and dream BIGG!!! I have to let go of my fear of lonliness and fright. And just go. stop praying about God doing something for my life and just go for it! I want to use my life in a mighty way for the Lord. I need to let the Lord be in total control of my life and just let go of my small dreams. I want my walk with the Lord to be soo on fire for God the light shines through me, and there is just a certain glow about me. The second night we were at camp mr. johnny talked on storms. And he asked if "We would follow Jesus inton a sotrom?" He told us that TRUE disciples follow Jesus. They participate and not just spectate. He said following Jesus Christ sometimes leads into storms which is soo true!! Storms create :uncertantity, fear & anziety, and isolation and oppurtunity for God to do something incredible & unimaginable..unexplainable. How we are to respond is to: Expect it, embrace it and endure it. And the song that came to my mind was ~I AM GOD~ by KIRK FRANKILN..
"Without faith its impossible to please him"
Okay more tomorrow have to head to bed!
Goodnite hope this gave some lightment on struggles or questions unanswered.
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