Sunlight & Surrender :)

Lately I've been having my own "crowder" moments, but it has to do with the Sun. Everytime i see the sun it seems liek the fiercness of it is radiating down on me more. It's like when i step out from underneath the shadows it smiles down on me. I've kinda founf my own metaphor. The Sun is like an archaic symbol for God. Deep down to my very core it feels like the Lord is smiling His face upon me, when the sun's rays hit my face. It makes me feel very much alive. This thought never occured to me until after i read a favorite series of mine called "Christy Miller Series" by Robin Jones Gunn. The series is about a girl at the age of 14 to the her early 20's. It follows her life, and through it i've learned so much. It's a christian series, and through the book it shows Christy's struggles in her walk with the Lord liek every teenage girl would. One in particular was love. She found her "forever" frien way back when she was 14 and he ended up being "the" one not just "some" one. I loved it, well im a sucker for romance and when i read about "forever" friendships, it just gives me hope. Okay sidetracked there, we all know with love we find heartache, its just the pattern that we go through to learn and grow. Well, the couple was being torn away from each other. Todd wanted to go to Hawaii for some pro surfing and Christy was involved with another guy at the time. he told Christy he wanted to bless her and the blessing has always stuck with me which gave me my thought. He told her this: "May the Lord keep you and bless you and may His face shine upon you." That little quote has forever been apart of me too. Everytime i do something i know the Lord has called/ told me to do, if i'm outside or begin to walk outside into the sunlight it's as if He is smiling on me. There's no better feeling in the world than that. It's liek he's telling you He loves you and is happy with you. God's own blessing in disguise. I love it, it's deffinately a "crowder" moment i enjoy. I just started thinking how relevant all this was, mainly they day i finally gave up the one thing that i was hiding from God. The one dream that i didn't want to surrender, but i did and i whole heartedly did! And i walked outside to throw away the memories of that dream and that's when i felt the sun. It was just brighter and lovlier than before and i knew it that instant, God was smiling. Oh and a side note, with the surrendering part. That's very tough! But i found a song that helped me through that; by Barlow Girls and coindentally enough its called Surrender.
Surrender
By: Barlow Girl
My hands hold safely to my dreams
Clutching tightly not one has fallen.
So many years I’ve shaped each one
Reflecting my heart, showing who I am.
Now you’re asking me to show
What I’m holding Oh so tightly.
Can’t open my hands; can’t let go
Does it matter?
Should I show you?
Can’t you let me go?

Surrender, surrender
You whisper gently
You say I will be freeI know but can’t you see
My dreams are me, My dreams are me.

Say you have a plan for me,
And that you want the best for my life.
Told me the world has yet to see
What you can do with one
That’s committed to your call.I know of course what I should do
That I can’t hold these dreams forever.
But if I give them now to you
Will you take them
Away forever?
Or can I dream again?

Surrender, surrender
You whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but can’t you see
My dreams are me, My dreams are me.

yeahh...saaayyy yeah...
u say..yeaahhh

Surrender, surrender
You whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but can’t you see
My dreams are me, My dreams are me.
surrender....